Disaster

What a crazy couple of days! There have been several people in my life who seem like they are having problems and everything they do and anything I might do (and in some cases have to say) only serve to make their situation worse. Unfortunately it is truly my JOB to see to their safety and well being and right now I'm nothing but a nasty bitch. Everything this person is doing is causing the situation to deteriorate... why do people do this? It seems that they get on a merry go round of destruction that just goes faster and faster. I have two people in my life on that awful downward spiral. I remember getting like that and it's SO hard to make it stop! It has to be by conscious effort! I want to know how to disarm this kind of thing, to see it on the horizon and help it be avoided.

I also have had two conversations with one of the most negative, nastiest people I have encountered. I've had to work hard not to become angered and give back what I am getting. Fortunate for me I have been well versed in the subject in question. It's been a great exercise in keeping my composure and keeping my personal opinions to myself.

Then there are my personal disasters with Russell's health, Mom's health and Val's health... BIG sigh! How will I take those issues? I've had to exercise keeping my mouth shut and my opinions to myself, keep my faith set on "high" and be patient! Why do I bother to blog this? I really don't know. I'm not certain that it helps anyone but me... I don't think that's wrong.

Russell will be going to visit the Stouts on 4/21, just days away and I get to go the end of May taking Mom to see 5 of her 6 great grandkids, two of whom she has never met! Hopefully she will be feeling better by then, after another heart cath. I so want to be a good daughter to her... she doesn't make it easy, I'm constantly at arms length. AND on 5/28 I will do my first 5K... haven't begun to train yet... Helen Bogus offered to train with me. Do I want that? Do I need it? Does she? Will it help? Will it hurt? I have no clue... we'll see by and by! With that, I say bye-bye for now!!!